It is hard to stay and think positive when every minute a problem or two arises. As of the moment, I had tried to stay busy like reading and researching for my upcoming fan fiction that I want to write for Wattpad. Yes, I have decided that since I have so many free time in my hands, I need to be productive and avoid being slumped back to my negative thinking. I think this will be my way of “escaping” my problem. Also, I should get back into working out. I’ll be doing this because I have to. I am not pleasing anybody or being discourage of all the skinny bodies that I see here on the internet. This is my new journey towards to a positive ME.
I am trying to conquer one day at a time but it is so hard.
I am also trying to avoid getting angry to myself.
Insulting myself won’t make anything different. I will still be stuck with my past.
The weather seems to be reflecting on my current mood: dark and gloomy.
All I need now is a lot of motivation to keep going. To never look back and start slumping again. I need to bring back my groove. I need to regain everything that I have lost 2 years ago: my confidence and self-determination.
I NEED TO LOVE MYSELF.
I need an inspiration.
I can do this!