So, I am back with my negative thoughts.
Update on my writing…
I am starting to doubt myself.
Yes, self-insulting is back!
How can I bring back my confidence? I am starting to question my creativity. I don’t know if I am just lazy or scared. Right now, it is a mixture of both!
Scared because I am not good like the others. Given that this is my first time to write publicly using Wattpad scares me. My first draft which is a prologue took me 3 days to compose, and to think that my mind is working overtime with all these ideas floating swimming inside my brain. I had to put them all down to my notebook so that I won’t forget them. But now, I am hitting a slump. Because I am scared, I had been lazy. As of the moment, I have been staring at my desktop computer screen for almost 3 hours, still stuck with the prologue.
I am supposed to be good at this.
I am supposed to be happy and just enjoying my creativeness flows through me.
I got scared of criticism.
I got scared of readers not liking it.
I got scared that it is not an original.
See how my brain works?!?!?
I cannot afford a short creative writing class/course. Moreover, I cannot afford to pay a proofreader to check my work.
Yes, I am so insecure right now.
Yes, I have a high expectation to myself.
Yes, I am pressuring myself.
Yes, I am driving myself crazy!
What should I do?